deep in my soul..

people may see me as a very strong woman.. despite of all the challenges that i've been through i'm still here bravely standing.. but fear lies deep my soul..fear of being hurt.. fear that things may not turn out right.. i've always been so secretive.. hide my emotions with my happy disposition.. maybe i'm too proud to accept that i made a mistake.. or maybe this is just me.. sticking to my wrong decision even if it will lead me to hell.. or maybe my optimism is holding me to keep on fighting a long and hopeless battle..