loving life!

"look within.. are you satisfied with the life you're living?"

-Bob Marley

this qoute is one of the reasons or should i say.. made me decide to take the path that i'm currently taking.. i don't want to go back to those memories again and again.. but i don't want to erase it.. for those memories were part of me.. it made the whole me.. it helped me become the woman i am seeing in me..

taking a deeper look within me.. i can say that i'm satisfied, never been this happy before.. some may say that i'm still wearing a mask and i should reveal my true feelings.. but the hell i care.. this is the true me.. no masks at all..

sometimes, it's very hard to convince people that you're really ok.. because they don't believe it.. and i hate it when they gave me special attention.. as if i am helpless.. i'm not used to getting those kind of attention because i'm a giver.. not much of a taker.. i don't want that people will pity me.. because i am a survivor and i always will..

loving life! yes.. i'm loving the life i'm in.. it may not be perfect.. but i'm perfectly happy with it.. i know that man will never gain satisfaction, but at this very moment.. i have achieved satisfaction, i'm pretty sure that this will change.. just like a wild beast.. i will always survive..