look within..

Open your eyes, look within. Are you satisfied with the life you're living?

this is a qoute by a jamaican singer, composer and a guitarist, the legendary BOB MARLEY.. this qoute bewildered me..

my 28 years of existence is not enough for me to find the real me.. the true meaning of life.. thoughts of freedom are always there..

i asked one of my friends about my weaknesses, he only said one thing.. i'm not a risk taker..he said that life's a gamble and that i should always grab every opportunity that comes along my way..

taking risks! will it do good? maybe yes.. maybe not, i'm not certain.. i have every opportunity to be free..but i can't understand why i always choose not to.. unfair that my ideals brought me here.. i thought that he will be my refuge when they part ways.. i thought that living with my ideals and my principles were the best.. i was fifteen years old then.. will i blame them? tired of asking questions to myself..i know i can't answer 'em all.. soul searching temporarily ceased these thoughts.. but again when you wake up you will be facing those again.. again and again..tiresome!

funny feeling when i give advise to people.. they considered me as a coach.. a counselor.. they will listen to me.. but even i, can't give recommendations to myself..

i'm tired of confrontations..
i'm tired of reconciliations..
i'm tired of giving..
i'm tired of living..